Janet Jackson is speaking out in her first interview since the death of her brother Michael and she’s blaming Michael’s personal physician, Dr. Conrad Murray, for his death.

She tells Robin Roberts of ABC News “He was the one that was administering, I think he is responsible.”

Murray has admitted giving Michael the anaesthetic propofol but we’re still waiting on whether or not he administered the lethal dose.

Janet talks about the day she found out about her 50 year-old brother’s death “I was at my house in New York. You know, another day. Another morning. And I get a call … [my assistant] said, ‘Your brother’s been taken to the hospital. It’s on CNN right now,’” I called everyone. There’s a line busy or — someone wasn’t picking up. I spoke to mother. I spoke to my brother Tito. I spoke to my nephew Austin. I spoke to my sister La Toya. I told them to call me when they got to the hospital. And I remember thinking nobody’s calling me back, so I tried calling again, and that’s how I found out that he was no longer … I couldn’t believe it.”

She adds “It just didn’t ring true to me. It felt like a dream. It’s still so difficult for me to believe. It’s, you know, you have to accept what is. But it’s hard. You have to move on with your life. You have to accept what is and I understand that.”

The entire interview aired on November 18.

Janet Jackson Speaks Out About Michael’s Death